yea prom last night was pretty sweet
i had a great time
mel had a great time
almost everyone else had a great time
and my thighs are rubber
taco/frenchie<3 wore me out :P
but yea maybe get some pichas up soon
peaces

yea today is the day after ashlies birthday
i totally forgot about it and i regret it so much
my truck broke down, im trying to find a job, my mom is pissed off at me for god knows what, and i forgot to say happy birthday to the one person that makes me feel amazing every day
now shes mad at me and i feel like shit
theres no way around it
i tried to tell her how i feel, but i dont think she really cares all that much
tomorrows going to suck. i just know it.
i cant even think straight anymore
im gunna go smoke a cigarette and forget about everything.
god i need a girlfriend

when it is cold, she makes me hot.
when I am tired, she wakes me up.
when i am lonely, she fills my heart.
when i am sad, she makes me smile.
when she walks through the door, it's like a dream come true.
and when she gave me that first kiss, my heart melted into the most beautiful ocean.
Olive you <3

my stash is empty
my bed is uncomfortable
i have cottonmouth that is annoying the hell out of me
but it all goes away
when i pick up this magical instrument
that just whisks me away from it all
just me and you
my fanciful guitar

man i got so lost last night
i went to see mel <3 and we went to a thinger in philly
then i got a lil lost there but got to the bridge
when i got off my mind went blank for some reason and i was freakin out
i ended up in trenton
for real
so i turned around llike 5 times and finally made it home at like 1230
so now my parents are mad at me n shit
o well shoulda brought ma map

yea im basically fed up with the whole gf/bf crapola
everytime i get involved it dont last cuz i work alot n shit
so im gunna go back to when i was happy and single all the time
im talkin bout man-whorin'
thats right ladies im all yours
feelin lonely? hit hoff up
need a man for the day? hoffmans all yours
and its all free with hidden fees of course
just treat the man right and he treats back
and that about wraps it up
hit me up whenever homie g's

yea so i gave this gorgeous girl at wendys my phone number today
shes so effin beautiful
her name is like kari or something
i cant spell it
i wrote my number on a napkin
it shows how classy i am
shes just too cute
i really hope she calls me cuz i wanna take her out somewhere
or whatever
if ur out there girl, call me!

Its really late at night but in still in the groove.
Been up for 18 hours so its hard to move.

My mind is really racin' from the words that you said,
so I'm probably gonna sit and think about it in bed.

When you said "I love you", thought i was gonna die,
and it made it even worse when I had to say "Bye".

I drove around the block to go and get me some gas,
but thinkin' bout you baby made me drive right on past.

I had to turn around, it made me look like a jerk,
I even got a mean face from the gas station clerk.

But after leaving them i had some peaceful free-time,
then that cutie made her way back into my mind.

She probably didn't mean it but i don't see it that way.
She made my dream come true on independence day.

The fireworks were flying and the rain did start,
but it didnt stop that girl from stealing my heart.

<3

yea so i got a ticket
drivin to becky d's
speedin on the bhp
and on piney hollow
but i took ma belt off
to get the reg and insurance crap
and ma id out of ma wallet
when he came to the window he asked for the shit
and he got it
then he came back and told me i got a seatbelt ticket
and he would forget about the speedin
i was happy
but now i gotta pay the fine
o well
no points is good 4 me

yea
went out with sam today
had a good time
we went to ihop lol
had pancakes
deelish
then we sat on her swing thing
and tried to get some private time
but her bro was there
then he left
and it was nice
this is nice
and we kissed
:] <3

just got bak from her house
i had a good time
i wanted to hold her hand
feel her pulse
but i musnt move to fast or ill drive the one i love away
i think she had a good time to
i really hope so
hopefully we can hang soon
we WILL hang soon
i know it
i want this to last
i like her
alot
she makes me smile without me having to change myself
ily sam

i worked mad hard today
the whole tie hoping i could come home early enough to go out with her
but of course not
i had to work til 630
and myspace isnt a practical way to communicate on an urgent basis
but maybe tomorrow will bring happiness
because im in pain right now
literally im aching

she told me she loved me
and my heart pounded
it wasnted to get out of my chest
it was like unstoppable
my hands went numb
all for those three words
how can words mean so much even though she probably didnt mean them?
i wish she did
because i do
and i want her to know
she makes my heart beat for a purpose
she is the purpose
i love her

i hate easter
well i actually hate holidays altogether
i usually say something innocent that everybody takes way too far
i get into trouble
i try to be sweet, nice, mature, w/e
it all backfires
i just want to go to the beach and sleep, or smoke, or just forget everything
but i cant because im "supposed to spend time with the family"
bullskata
i cant take that crap
give me the keys and a time to be back
today was easter
"jesus's birthday"
who cares?
nobody talks about anything
except work, cooking (another form of work), or they trash talk each other
what kind of family is that?
theres nobody to hang with except old people and my underaged cousins
which would tell on me in a heart beat
so theres no fun in my life during holidays
theres no fun in my life period
the only thing im looking forward to is going back to school
because it gets me out of home
when im home i work
when im at school i work
when the weekend comes around i work
the funny thing is
im broke
ha
how wack is that?
then my uncle comes around to ask if i want a steady paying job
fuck yea!
but my dad isnt happy
what
the
fuck?
i just want to get out of the house for a day
i cant wait to move out
im going to canada
and dont plan on seeing me until the holidays
lets see how much fun that will be
who knows?
you might even trash talk ME behind my back
lucky me
jotete
and thats spanish

shes got eyes
like supernovas in heaven
shes got a smile
that a country would die for
she has a personality
that makes my blood flow
and her voice
makes my skin tingle

she isnt even trying
which scares me
for what would become of me
if she were?
i think i would crumble
under her charm
because shes like
a fire in the wintertime
you just cant go without her for very long.

ohmigod
she read my school journal
i almost died
but i played it cool
luckily she didnt read the personal stuff
her name isnt in them on purpose
in gym i put my arm around her
it felt really nice
i think she didnt even notice
but i did
even though i looked distracted
my full attention was on her
but then she went away
and i was sad
and hot
but i felt better when she said goodbye to me
because i get her last hug of the day
:]

ok i almost died today
on the inside
shes not feeling too well and i was there to hold her
i felt so good
when she puts her head on my shoulder i just wanna explode
she makes me smile
she makes me happy
she doesnt even know it
how wack is that?
i need a life
every time i hear about someone shes with
my stomache sinks
yea thats what i call
pathetic

usually i dont get jealous but today i did
over something stupid
she told me about someone she hardly knows and i totally got mad on the inside
what the hell is wrong with me
theres no chance with her so why do i care?
shes the only one i feel like this around
i should just give up but shes just too awesome
i couldnt change anything about her if i wanted to because theres nothing to change
shes basically perfect
i sit next to her and i can talk about anything i want to
and i listen to her like shes reading a book
we wwalk arm in arm and i wish we could just run away
when she leans her head on me i almost melt
i wish time froze and we could just sit there and talk
i never talk with anybody
she allows me to open up like nobody else
i dont have to put on a mask
i can be me
thats what i want
thats what i get with her
if there was a way to find out how she felt i would try but im not that nosey kind of person that snoops around
i want her to just tell me when were alone
which weve been a few times lately
its weird cause we hardly knew eachother just a month ago
now were kind of close
i like it alot
i wanted to know her since freshmen year but i thought i never would
i thought there was no chance
but it seems ive become quite popular in the last 3 years
i dont know what they see in me
im pretty muc the same guy
just older
maybe thats it
maybe i changed as i grew and i didnt know about it
or maybe theyve grown more mature to see what i really am and not judge before they know me
i wish i could do things i should be aloud to but laws prohibit
like actually drive
but i need insurance
if i could drive i could get closer to her
it makes me sad that i cant though
maybe when we hang out she will spill the beans
i cant get her out of my head
when i sit near her its all i think about
i think about what im doing and if ill offend her in any way
i want to be perfect
i want to match her
i just want her to know how i feel without embarrising myself in the process because i dont want to mess it up
all i want is her

when others see you
they dont see past the skin
they dont see past the drop dead beauty
but i see all the way
all the way to the inner beauty
and let me tell ya
its amazing.
ive never seen somebody
that makes me so intimidated
by just a smirk.
how can anybody stand to be in your presence
and keep their sanity
its hard for me
to even concentrate.
i catch myself
glancing at you
and when you catch me i jump
just like a littler kid getting caught in the cookie jar
you are my cookie jar
you are my treat
you are my beautiful preom queen
please be mine.

i hate you